How Did You Survive Trauma?
As a childhood sexual abuse survivor, have you ever asked yourself, “How on earth did I survive my trauma?”
Looking back at my horrible childhood and all the crap I went through, I am still amazed that I turned out as well as I did.
Hi, this is Kurt B. Ellis, an author who self-publishes with Amazon’s Kindle Direct Publishing. I have written a novel to share my story.
My novel’s is “Boy in the Barn: Journey of Triumph Over Horrific Child Abuse, Sexual Abuse, and PTSD.”
The Kindle and paperback will go live on March 01, 2023.
This novel was based on my life. It begins with my horrible childhood and continues through my remarkable journey of survival and recovery.
Stay tuned, and let me share more information about how I survived my horrible child abuse and sexual abuse.
Denialism and Repressed Memories
During my abuse, I tried my best to deny all the horrific things.
I kept telling myself that these were not true and were not happening to me.
I denied my situation and pretended that everything was OK.
In public, I was this happy, cheerful, precocious boy that appeared to enjoy life, at least on the surface.
Yet, deep down inside, privately, I knew the horribleness was all true. Why? Well, my sadistic brother abused me daily and made sure I couldn’t forget.
But he couldn’t break me. And I think that was the one thing that perplexed and incensed him so.
No matter how much he tried, he could not mentally or emotionally destroy me. So I did not crumble into a shattered, sniveling, pathetic being and wither away like he hoped; instead, I took it. And in the end, it made me stronger.
Why? Well, you see, early on, I became quite resilient and stubborn. I remember thinking, you bastards may take my body and even try to possess my mind, but I refuse to give in.
I was determined to survive and make something out of myself. Because, in the end, that was what my abusers couldn’t do. To him and all my pedophilic abusers, I would not stoop to their level or their cruel world.
So I guess you could chalk this up to steel will and stubbornness. Yet it didn’t last forever because I had a lifetime of PTSD and repressed memories. But nevertheless, I managed to recover from that too.
From the heart of a person who survived childhood sexual abuse and trauma, my novel’s underlying message is simple. If I can do this, you can too!
I sincerely hope that my novel will inspire and support other sexually abused people or those suppressed by life events beyond their control.
If I can reach at least one sexually abused person, I will have met my goal.
My inspiring LGBTQIA+ coming-of-age story is about hope, courage, and the resilience of the human spirit.
Still Seeking Advanced Reviewers!
I will continue to take advanced reviewers through the end of February.
And in exchange for an honest review and rating on Amazon.com, I will give you a free copy of my book.
For all you eager early-bird readers, please use this link to sign up for my Advanced Reviewer Team before time runs out! https://wp.me/PdTJSB-1H2
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